Oliva Kaspen. Where to start with Olivia? I didn't always like her but I didn't hate her. I just kind of related. She was pathological at times and seriously devious. She was strong though. A strong heroine. I admired all the things she put herself through, all she endured and still was able to get up every morning.
She was strong, except when it came to Caleb Drake! Man this girl was desperate and devilishly O-B-S-E-S-S-E-D when it came to this guy. She reminded me a bit of Lexi from "Avoiding Commitment" by K.A. Linde. The way how Lexi was so desperately in love with Jack (though Lexi wasn't the one doing the lying in that one). Yea, Olivia was seriously obsessively and dangerously in love with Caleb.
The story alternates between the past and present after a very present encounter between Olivia and Caleb who is now her ex. Has been for a while. She knows she shouldn't see him. After all he dumped her and never wanted to see her again but its a shocker when she engineers a meeting with him, that he doesn't remember her. At all! He had been in an accident and lost his memory. Couldn't even remember his own name when he woke up in the hospital.
After their 're-connection' we get glimpses of their past. How they meet and conclusively how they ended. Man, I just couldn't believe the lengths this girl went to to have him. It was insane. She was insane. Total mental for him but I got it. I didn't dislike her. I couldn't. I really couldn't. Their relationship was seriously dysfunctional. Sometimes I questioned that they should be together, especially because of Olivia's choices concerning him. But Olivia's past spoke volumes for her behavior. Let's just say her parents weren't exactly role-models to look up to. She was a front-row witness to that. She let people get close but not too close if you get my meaning. Even with Caleb, she never gave all of herself.
I'll tell you who I didn't like though, Leah! I was totally Team Olivia despite her obvious flaws and Leah was just the mean rich girl standing in her way. She was equally as conniving, okay well maybe not more than Olivia, and she was desperate to keep Caleb. I first started getting teary eyes after Leah made her first play of blackmailing Olivia away from Caleb, then again when she finds out the truth about her new beau and then the end. Gosh dammit, the end!
I think I went a little mental after Caleb and Olivia's last scene in the book. I'm like okay, it's all out there, why isn't this being resolved? Why is this happening? Why?
This part kinda rubbed me raw when Olivia was confessing on a dark, seemingly lonely street. It was real and honest and damn if the waterworks didn't get the best of me here and my heart didn't try to jump out of my chest:
“You changed everything. I was so frightened of losing you that I did everything in my power to drive you away. I thought that if I didn't, eventually you would see that you were wasting your time with me and leave anyway.”
― The Opportunist
And then the epilogue. Say it ain't so. Noah seems nice but pssshhhttt he's not Caleb. Please don't let this happen. But, if it does happen maybe it's for the best Gah! I'm so torn. I'm a mush-ball of emotions right now and I just want the sequel.
“You can only give your heart away once, after that, everything else will chase your first love”
― The Opportunist
Is there any way to make Dirty Red come sooner? Okay, it's coming out in December. I'll bite. I can wait (I really can't but I'll be cool about it *whistles*) It's just a month away.
I've seen majorly good reviews, just stopped myself short of reading them so I didn't spoil it for myself. I needed to see what the fuss was about and now that I have, I wished I'd read it sooner. But this works, cuz' I don't have to wait as long for the sequel ;)
Dirty Red (Love Me with Lies, #2)
by Tarryn Fisher
Expected December 28th 2012