Oh God! I sitting here thinking, 'what the hell did I just read?' I feel like I'm hungover because I cried so much that my head hurts. This book hurt like hell. I don't think I was ever so affected so much. It's a testament to the author's story-telling. It was a very good novel. By no means bad but I just, gosh! It hurt! I feel like I'm going to be thinking about this book for a long time.
The story is about Harper, she's a marine's daughter and she's moved away for college. She's thoroughly inexperienced in every way so this was a time for experimentation and well, taking chances for her. She's never been kissed, never been on a date or even to a mall. Can you believe that? But she's a marine kid so it's understandable.
She gets her first boyfriend and quickly falls head over heels for him - Brandon. But there's just one problem, she can't seem to stay away or not be affected by her roommate Breanna's brother Chase. Chase is all kinds of sexy and tatted up but the way he is with women, she knows they'll never be right for each other. Brandon on the other hand is a gentleman and she could see herself having a future with him.
What happens when she can't resist Chase and in a sort space of time, changes everything? She basically loses her virginity to Chase and ends up pregnant forcing her to tell Brandon what happened and ending their relationship. She and Chase then give their relationship a try.
Man, Chase! Let me just say that no character has made me feel like I felt about Chase. Brandon was a pretty okay guy but he just wasn't Chase. His character developed into one of the most lovable heroes and I was Team Chase all through. From the very start. I wanted them to be together. To get married and raise their baby together. The things he would say to her made me freaking melt. The way this guy loved her, hurt my heart. Seriously!
But then the twist, the turning point of the story. Swear I'm tearing up while I write this. Chase died! He freaking died in a car accident after some stupid slutty girl tried to break him and Harper up. God! One minute they're arguing and he's trying to make her trust and believe in him and the next minute, he's dead! Fuck! Sorry! Gosh, I cried so hard. I just couldn't take it. I just keep replaying his last words to her in my head and crying.
"I love you, Princess" - ChaseShe didn't say it back. And it kills me because I knew she loved him but when he died they weren't in a good place. I got a freaking headache from crying so much. Couldn't sleep. I can't believe how invested I became in this story. I had to stop reading for a while unsure if I could finish the book. But I continued and cried more because it just kept reminding me of what could have been. I just had to stop again.
This book freaking wrecked me and I'm not sure if I'll get over it. Right now I feel like crying again because damn, if she didn't end up with Chase he could have had his own HEA right? I seriously fell in love with him and my keyboard is blurring cuz' I'm crying again. He never got to see his baby and worst off, he died thinking he'd f-ed everything.
Harper has her HEA with Brandon. Is it bad that I seriously didn't care much for him? It sounds bad but Chase was the guy for Harper, from my POV. Okay, I'm being petty because Brandon really loved her too and he was an upstanding guy. He even loved her baby even though he wasn't the father.
One part that had me bawling was when Brandon was telling the baby about Chase and how much he loved him (the baby) and Harper. And the end scene when they visited the grave and he thanked Chase for his part in their family.
I'm emotionally wrung out and I feel a bit empty. Who knew you could feel so much from a fictitious story, right? I didn't. But I feel it. I feel so much. I need to read a novel now that's not heavy on the feelings. It's just too soon!
I had a love/hate relationship with this book. I love it at moments especially Chase and Harper's first time, Brandon and Harper's wedding. And hated it so much at times, Chase dying. The abruptness of Chase's death seared me but I think I realize now that she was meant to be with Brandon. I may not have liked it but I get it, (I think). I'm still not sure how I feel about this book overall. It was good but I don't know if I loved it or hated it. Like I said, love/hate relationship.
UPDATE *** So I told my friend about this book and she totally helped me to see that the author didn't cut Chase out from us. He was with us straight through because we never forgot him. Even with our rants. He was not far from Harper either and I finally saw that. He was her first time. Gave her her first child and his design is tattooed on her skin for life.
If you're going to read this, keep tissues handy! I soaked my top crying like a baby!
TEAM CHASE FOREVER!